Broken Is Beautiful
All of us are broken. We live in a broken world full of broken people, but we are also all created in God’s image. He is a part of us deep down to our very core. Our brokenness doesn’t disqualify us from being used in His kingdom; no, our brokenness is what He uses to further His kingdom. There is a deep beauty in your brokenness, don’t be ashamed of it, don’t try to hide it. When we allow our brokenness to be on display amazing things happen. It is through our brokenness that His Light Shines.
Think of us as jars full of His light. If we were perfect jars, no cracks, no blemishes, His light wouldn’t be able to go anywhere else. But if we are cracked jars, broken but glued together by His love, His light shines through and the darkness fades away. “Let your light so shine before men…” (Matthew 5:16).
There will be times in all of our lives when our brokenness comes as a result of our own actions, our own mistakes, and sin. But there will also be times in our lives when our brokenness is a result of other people’s actions and mistakes. Hurt that could have been avoided if only someone had chosen different actions or kinder words.
For the people that have hurt you, I am truly sorry. It honestly isn’t fair. Other people shouldn’t have the ability to tear us down, but far too often they do. Just look at the amount of bullying that is going on in schools and online these days. It’s heartbreaking.
Sometimes our pain and brokenness doesn’t come from ourselves or other people but from circumstances and life curves that come at us. Our four miscarriages are an example of that. We didn’t do anything wrong, there was nothing we could have done to prevent them, and no one did it to us either. And yet, with each loss I broke. Broke into a thousand little pieces as my heart and womb mourned the life it had been growing, four times over.
We do have the choice to stay there, in our pile of broken pieces. As the dust settles and time passes, we have the option to allow bitterness to crawl into our hearts. To be honest, sometimes it’s really hard to not become bitter. When you experience a pain that’s so deep that it reaches into the very depths of you, it’s easy to let it jade you and make you want to turn away from everything and everyone.
How are we, as frail humans, supposed to take our pain and turn it into something beautiful? The answer is pretty simple: we’re not. We’re not supposed to turn our pain into something beautiful because we can’t. Not on our own. God heals our pain, He glues our pieces back together. Will we look different than we did before? Definitely. Are we still beautiful? Absolutely. And the best part is all we have to do is be open to it. Open our hearts to allow Him to come in and do His healing work.
In full disclosure and honesty, there were many, many times during our miscarriages that I wanted to shut God out. I didn’t want to listen, I didn’t want to let Him in. It’s a very common and normal reaction to have when we’re in the midst of pain and tragedy. I was angry with Him, and that’s okay too. Our anger doesn’t phase Him.
Don’t be afraid to admit that you’re angry. He won’t send lightning down to smite you. Don’t be afraid to admit that you just can’t right now. That in this raw moment of heartache, you just can’t open your heart up because you feel like your heart is far too gone, far too broken.
I completely understand because I have been there. Eventually, I’ll get to a point where my only options though, are to either let Him in or drown in the sea of heartbreak. In the midst of pain, confusion, anger, even jealousy, open your heart even the tiniest bit, and He will come in and a miracle will be done in your heart. It will take a while. And in our broken world, it will need to be done again and again.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them.” Romans 8:28 (emphasis added). Notice the “everything” in that promise. It doesn’t say “only your good parts” or “as long as you never make mistakes or sin” or “everything except _____.” E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. God will make everything work together for GOOD. It can be hard to see and hard to believe at times, I know. But this is a promise and God never breaks His promises.
I know some of you are going through some unbelievably difficult and dark times right now, and I am so so sorry. We may not know you, but we do know that you are loved. So deeply, so desperately, by a God that did not want it to turn out like this. He doesn’t rejoice over our pain. He cries and mourns with us.
In the beautiful words of the band Tenth Avenue North “I’ll be by your side wherever you fall/In the dead of night whenever you call/And please don’t fight these hands that are holding you/My hands are holding you/Cause I, I love you/I want you to know/That I, yeah I love you, I’ll never let you go/No, No.” I highly recommend listening to their song, “By Your Side,” and letting the words wash over your soul.
They say time heals all wounds. That can be true, to an extent, but I think “God heals all wounds” is a more accurate assessment. God heals all wounds and God can use all wounds. There are no wounds too deep, too large, too unspeakable, that God cannot heal and use. His light shines through our cracks and lights the world.
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You are loved.
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